When I was in high school, I overheard my classmates’ conversation about what will we become in next 6 years, or after we leave college. That boy in my class told his friends that one day we will all work as ordinary employees behind the desk. Day by day passed just like that and that might be what we all together would be.
I giggled a little and promised to myself that I refuse to be somewhat ordinary and working behind the desk, day by day passed by just like that. I want to be someone I’d like to be, I want to be somebody beyond what people could imagine.
Talking about dreams, I have a lot of dreams when I was a kid. My family is an average family; we weren’t poor or very rich. But having so many books to read, I have dreamed to be anything I have read in the book.
I wanted to be an astronaut just because the outer space enchanted me more than anything. Then, I wanted to be an architect, a doctor, a psychologist, and in high school, I wanted to be a famous writer, writing a best-seller book just because I want to live forever in a book eventhough I have died.
So I’ve grown affection towards some fantasy books like C.S Lewis’ books, Tolkien’s books, and many more. I learned philosophy just to learn many things so that I can have things to write.
But I never have a dream studying abroad someday. Until in February, my teacher called me and offered me an application to fill for college scholarship to Taiwan. I know Taiwan, but I never have any imagination of going there. After having to wait about 5 months, I finally got the admission letter from the college I apply. And within 2 months, I started my new life in Taiwan.
To some people who don’t really know me, maybe I’m too exaggerating when I said how much Taiwan has meant to me. And it has nothing to do with my love life there, which was so desperate to tell because I didn’t have a single boyfriend and I didn’t have any single relationship there. I love Taiwan because from there, my life has changed.
Taiwan is like dreams come true. I have lived in a small village in southern Jakarta forever, and I was such a crybaby, I never want to be 5 miles away from home or from my parents. But then voila, I lived alone separated from my family for 4 years.
Taiwan changed me. I have grown from a quiet girl to a bigger girl ready to face wilder life outside. Living alone outside your country surely makes you learn a lot of things. I learn how to communicate not only in my own language but also in 3 different languages with people.
I have learned that I have to struggle so hard in order to survive. And that struggling I have been through is the story of how I reach my dreams.
And no dreams, no single dream is impossible.
Even dreams when I wished so hard to meet my high school idols. Haha!
There are reasons why after I leave college, I still kinda miss it all the time. Sometimes I look back seeing how different my life was when I was in college. The people are different, the atmospheres are different, the customs are different.
Anyway, my intention today is not to make any comparison between my hometown Indonesia and my second home, Taiwan. I just wonder why dreams are easy to get when I was in Taiwan?
But dreams are dreams.
No matter how poor and in what condition are you today, You got to have visions and dreams about what you want in maybe next 3 years, or next 30 years. Because that what moves you in the end. Eventhough in next 20 years, I may not become an astronaut, architect, teacher, doctor, psychologist, or even a writer,
at least I want to live when I have big dreams to follow.
And no one can tell me not to.
I am 24 years old this year, working as an ordinary employee, day by day just passed by. But inside, I’m still a 5 years old girl who dreams big, and reality won’t bring me down! And I know someday, I will reach my dreams, I will live a life I wanted to be.
And I promised to take you with me, darling if you’re brave enough to stay with me.
p.s note to my boyfriend. I love you